Yes it has been a long time since I have been on here. Life has made me busy. 6 days till Christmas. I wonder what I am getting? Maybe something great I will get. I do not know. I am content. I do not need anything. I wish, I want, a yearn, I grow, I search for having a relationship with a woman that is what I want as a Christmas present. But that is hardly easy to get. It should not be rewarded like a prize. You have to earn it to receive it and you should not find it unless you have butterfly's in your stomach after you meet a girl and then you should ask. But then I will be waiting for her to come. I will be patient, I will be calm, I will say nothing but loving kindness to everyone until then.
I am not worthy of asking such a thing for Christmas. It is impossible for man to bring something but only God can do. If it is his will then Let it happen.
Apart from that I am still working hard at Kroger which is not much because it's very boring at night. I always bring a book for me to read. I have been bringing around The Wheel of Time's series. Something to pass the time. I hate the hours and I hate that I have to do it but until they can find me something better to do than I will do it like no other.
I bring sanity to the door of my work. I get pissed off that I have to work under some stupid people sometimes. And sometimes I work with morons and losers too. God help me.
I have been going to Blockbuster recently and met a girl named Courtney and she is one amazing person. I just feel it and I am going to ask her out sometime soon when I return Dan in Real Life. What a great movie. I have been going to Blockbuster since I got dumped. And watching movies is something that helps me find peace and all that. It sucks being dumped and its making me feel hurt that she did that by phonecall but there are a whole lot of  other fishes out there for me and she was not the one for me. What really sucks is that I bought her a throw for our first month anniversary. Well now I am single I thinking about taking a real hard look at what I am looking for and going all the way to meet a girl that has what I am looking for.
My New Year's Resolution is two parts: one analyzing what I want in a woman to be with and 2 finding that girl through what I want. I know this is hard. I know that woman are evil but they are not too evil to be not with and they are worth being around with more than you think. God got my brother married I know he can do the same with me.
Well peace out and have a wonderful Saturday.

Gamerjon

I do not know where to start but I do have this endless emptiness in me that I cannot fill no matter what. The emptiness that I have is something that every normal guy wants: a woman. Quite simply that. So I need to ask this question because it would bring peace to my mind.

I have seen and met every girl out there. Never dated a single one but its not like I am begging for one to be with me. I do not have a sign on my forehead that reads: I am available are you?.

So here is the question: what do women want in a guy? Does looks matter? What about personalities? Am I missing something or is like I am just not good at being around women? Please give me comments.

It is such a weird feeling not to have a girlfriend when I have so many friends that I have. Never really been on a date in over a year and I just feel like I am missing something. I am a great guy, a nice guy who just works and goes home and relaxes and go back to work the next day and no one to be with or to feel like I am wanted by another female companion. I know that I have been praying for God to show me the woman that he wants me to have but nothing is happening and I have been ever patient with him and just telling myself that it will happen one day.
But is it? I feel like just doing the same thing over and over again and I know that I will not meet my wife at a bar or a club but at church or at my work. I work as a Cashier at Kroger and I love my job. I have everything that I need but a person to touch to feel to hold to be around with and when I go to weddings by myself I just kinda feel lonely deep within my soul. Is that natural to have? Sometimes I cry because of it. So I love being single but hate the game that most men play to get a woman.